2015 was amazing. Hands down, one of my best years. During the last couple weeks of December I reflected a bit on the year. What made this year so amazing, compared to previous years? Well, a few years ago, I really began living intentionally. I started doing a lot of personal development work, I set goals, I decided what I wanted my life to look like and I focused my attention and energy on those visions. And then everything fell apart. Let’s just say it didn’t look like I had envisioned. In fact, it was almost the opposite. I did no travel, my business was not generating money, which led to lots of debt and living with my parents. I was dating someone who was, let’s just say, not very nice to me. The list seemed to keep going. And yet, as I look back on this time in my life, I realize that it was exactly what I needed to be where I am now. I was asking for my life to look completely different. In order for that to happen, the old structures had to crumple so something new could show up. I’m not suggesting that you destroy everything in your current life so that something new can show up. What I am saying, is to be patient with yourself. When you decide to create something new in your life, there are reasons it doesn’t happen over night. Don’t be discouraged… keep creating.
Here is 2015 in a nut shell….
In January I started my year in San Francisco with a good friend. We spent a long weekend hanging out, eating amazing food, shopping, etc. But what I took away from this trip was the kindness, generosity and patience of my friend. I realized the kind of person I wanted spend my time with and realized it was time to do an inventory of the people I was hanging around with…. A couple weeks later I was off to Sayulita, Mexico on a week long yoga retreat.
I never wrote about that trip. It was a trip for me, to let old things go, to set intentions for the new year and for my life. I took the trip thinking I would have time to reflect, sit alone in meditation, spend time journaling, etc. That didn’t happen. I was never alone, in fact, quite the opposite. But things don’t always happen as you expect they will, but they do happen exactly as they should. This trip sparked two of the greatest, yet hardest pieces of my year… loosing people. No one died. Thankfully. First, a friendship ended. You don’t always understand it at first, I usually take things that like very hard, trying to understand, re-living conversations, questioning myself, wondering if I was a good enough friend, etc, etc. etc. It wasn’t until an entire year went by with a heavy heart that I realized the friend I lost, was not my true friend in the first place. When you’re in the company of true friendship and love, you don’t question yourself, you don’t feel judged, you don’t wonder if you are enough. I have true friends, I know what it feels like. I didn’t end the friendship, but I found it to be interesting considering my realization just a few weeks earlier.
Secondly, that trip sparked an intervention of sorts. I realized the extreme severity of an addiction in someone I loved and I confronted them. I felt like I had two options, let them kill themselves, or intervene and risk the possible backlash. I realized that a feud might breakout or I might be attacked back as is common with interventions. I made the choice to step in and try to save the life of someone I loved. Both happened. That person got help, and to this day, I somehow am also the bad guy. I had to walk away from this relationship but it was worth it. I hope someone would do the same for me.
March was very significant. I sold my house, it was bittersweet. I was emotionally attached to say the least. It was my first house, I had put a lot of love into it and it came time to say goodbye. The sale of my house also led to being completely debt free, for the first time in a long time. Another weight off the shoulders!
In March, my boyfriend and I started dating after being friends for over a year. I can say, I couldn’t ask for a better partner. He is kind, generous, patient, successful, hilarious, etc., etc. We took our first of many trips. We went to Vail, CO and had a blast!
In June, we took out first out of country trip together to Dominican Republic (Original Post).
In July, I officially moved out of my apartment and into my boyfriends house.
We also took a camping trip… it was really more of a “glamping” trip Seriously, I’m not a camper, I have probably gone a handful of times in my life. So….I might of overpacked. We had enough food to feed a family of 6 for a week or so, we were gone for 2 nights
In August, we flew to England to attend my childhood best friends wedding. It was amazing!! (Original Post)
We spent the summer weekends trail running and hiking outside with our dogs! We even made our way down to Manitou Springs, CO to hike the incline.
Also, in August my brother proposed to his girlfriend!!!! So excited to have her in our family!
In September, we flew to Oklahoma and I met my boyfriend’s family for the first time. We went to my first OU football game… well, actually my first college football game
In October, my mom and I threw an engagement party for my brother and his future wife!
In November, my boyfriend and I flew to Las Vegas for the weekend. We ate in some amazing restaurants, I played Craps for the first time (and won!), we went to see “O” at the Bellagio… it was a blast!
December is coming to an end as I write this, we spent Christmas eve with my family and then flew to Oklahoma on Christmas day to visit my boyfriends family as well. On Sunday evening his parents drove us to the airport, we had been on the outskirts of winter storm Goliath and had our fingers crossed that we would have a safe and uneventful flight home. That didn’t happen. Our flight was cancelled. Flat out cancelled. The next flight to Denver they could get us on was Wednesday evening. So we had a couple choices… we could wait until Wednesday and hope to catch a flight then… or we could drive home. Since we are spending NYE in Iowa with my brother’s fiancés family, staying until Wednesday wasn’t really an option. Plus, our dogs were waiting out arrival We rented a car and were on the road within the hour. It was stressful to say the least… We were driving through an ice storm trying to get to Witchita to get a room for the night. I had to close my eyes most of the way I was so nervous! But we made it and had a warm bed to sleep in. The next morning we got up and finished the drive. We missed work, spent hours trying to call United for a refund, we were tired, we missed our beds… but through all that, we laughed… a lot! I remember sitting there in the rental car, staring out the window thinking how grateful I am. The year was filled with drama, with loss, with stress from work and moving, etc, etc, but we still laughed. I thought a lot about the first part of my year, about the people I lost, but more importantly was the people I gained and the amazing people that were already in my life. I thought about how I set the intention to let go of the people that were no longer in alignment with who I wanted to be, and to bring in people who were. It didn’t all happen gracefully, but it happened. Bringing awareness to this piece of my life was huge.