lady-in-waiting

February 25, 2016

lady-in-waiting

You know those people who always talk about finding their life’s purpose?  I’m one of those people.  It’s a curse really; I guess unless you actually know what yours is.  But I don’t.  Maybe I am just dramatic, but this unfulfilled quest causes an incredible amount of turmoil in my life.  It’s sort of like when you’re explaining something to someone and all of a sudden, for the life of you, you can’t remember the one word that will tie everything together.  It’s right on the tip of your tongue….it’s frustrating as hell!  But that is one moment in time, a moment that passes.  Imagine having that feeling constantly.  A constant feeling that… is… just…so…close.  Yet, it never comes.  And there are MANY times, I have started on a path I was so sure was it, I put all my heart and soul and life in to it… for a week, just to turn around and decide not to follow it; because what if I put all that heart and soul and life in to it, and it’s not it?  Then what?  No idea really… I imagine spontaneous combustion.

So, one morning a couple weeks ago my alarm went off, I opened my eyes to that same feeling.  It’s not dread, it’s more like “sigh, this again?”  It’s like a waiting period.  Maybe this will be the day I uncover my purpose and can really begin my life!  So I did what I normally do, hit snooze and went back to bed for 9 minutes.  When my 9 minutes were up, I rolled over and checked my Facebook feed.  There is usually nothing of interest, but it’s an addiction.  This particular morning, something caught my eye.  It said something like “What to do every morning to change your life” or something like that.  It was a 6 minute sound cloud snippet from one of Dr. Dain Heer’s classes.  It was a pretty mind-shifting 6 minutes.

I can’t reiterate exactly what was said during those 6 minutes, but I can tell you 6 words Dr. Heer said that stopped me in my tracks.  He said, “YOU DON’T HAVE A LIFE PURPOSE.”

Um… excuse me?

It was a little like telling me there was no treasure at the end of my treasure hunt, but man, was I relieved!  I felt free or something.  Something I had not felt in a really long time.  I listened to the rest of the snippet; he said that if you don’t create your life, this world will create it for you.  Yea, I know.  Read that sentence a couple more times.    

Holy Shit.  That was exactly where I was.  One, I was letting this world create my life.  And two, the weight alone of having only one chance to correctly choose the exact purpose of your entire life on earth is paralyzing.  Instead, what if you get to be whoever you want to be.  You get to do whatever you want to do.  You can pick a life purpose.  You can change your mind.  You can have two purposes.

You don’t have to be the lady-in-waiting… you get to be the Queen!  (Sorry, that was really cheesy)

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